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Thursday, April 9, 2015

Been distracted, incontinent dogs, other people's kids, being fat, maybe getting back on track.

Hey y'all. 

I am sorry if you have been looking for more videos about my journals or planners or just anything really. My brain's felt a little more addled than normal lately, and I've been dealing with a tension headache/migraine that's not wanting to go away fully. I get a few hours of reprieve and then it's back.  I have figured out how to sense it coming on, and can try to subdue it by just sitting quietly and taking a ton of Tylenol.  That has really kind of messed up my plans of actually accomplishing anything.

The last couple of days have been much better, thankfully. Yesterday, I finally got my entire living room swept and mopped.  Even used a real cotton mop and bucket like mom always did.  I'd been using those washable pads and the Flylady mop and swiffer and stuff, but this time it needed a deep cleaning.  Y'all ... it was embarrassingly gross. My daughter's dog needs to get his boy bits cut off and quit marking stuff or her boyfriend is going to find himself with a new dog.  ARGH it's so frustrating.  And my dog, Sophie... omg she barks to go out ALL the time, and due to my weird hours at work, she doesn't have any sort of regular sleep schedule either, so all day and all night she needs to go out to pee.  Lately, I have been going to bed as soon as I log off from work, so I'm in bed by 3:30am, so I can try to have some sort of life during the daylight hours with my family... her bladder is not accustomed to this.  So, now and then, not only do I find the obvious signs of Mr. Wiggles marking a piece of furniture for the hundredth time, but also giant puddles in the MIDDLE of the living room floor! Ok,... must calm down before I trigger another headache.

So, yeah I mopped my living room floor within an inch of its life. Hot soapy water, cotton old fashioned mop.  Then I rinsed out the mop, dumped the bucket in the driveway like Mom always did and refilled the bucket at the spigot outside where I rinsed the mop (not doing THAT in my sink yuck!)  Then came back in and mopped it again with cold clean water, ringing out the mop each time. Rinsed out the mop and hung it outside to dry with the bucket. I defied anyone to walk on that wet floor.

It finally dried and the furniture was put back, just in time for the kids we were babysitting to show up. A friend of ours who is battling cancer for the 2nd time in her young life had tickets to a concert 4 hours away, and couldn't get any of her family to babysit her boys.  They are a handful. So, we agreed. When you have that sort of thing going on in your life, you need to see as many concerts as you want. So, her boys were dropped off by a mutual friend after school.  At first it was cool.  They did their homework without being asked. One sat and played with toys we had laying around here and watched TV with me, talking over the good parts of course.  The other one asked to play video games on my computer.  Thankfully my youngest was here and knew the boys well and played with them each for a while and got the computer set up for them. Also, thankfully, my husband was off work and home when they got here, so he dealt with the fact that they refused to eat what we cooked for dinner (though we knew they wouldn't want pierogies and broccoli and cheese). I don't know what their mom feeds them, but apparently it's not mashed potatoes, or broccoli and cheese. I went to my office and logged into work, and he got them to take baths and finally asleep on the couch. I am just not equipped to deal with kids at this point in my life.  I'm sure a grandchild would be different since you start out slow... but two 8yr old boys.  Nope. Kudos to those of you who take in relatives or foster kids etc.  Y'all have my respect.

Oh, yesterday, I also got Zoe and my husband to help get the piles of junk and trash that had accumulated over the winter. The porch looks so much better, but still has a long way to go.  Christopher wants to fix the railing and stain/paint it this year. We need to put a new set of steps on it as well. We've decided to stay here at least until Zoe has graduated high school, so hopefully this year, we can get some much needed home improvement and maintenance done outside.

Today, I woke up at 11:30 as I have for the last few days.  I am so glad to finally be on a new sleep schedule and it's working out! Being up before noon gives me so much time to get stuff done around here and still do stuff I want to do on my own, like catch up on TV shows or maybe even work out.  I hate working out when other people are around.  So I just don't.  Today was a GORGEOUS day. Sun shining a few fluffy clouds and 74 degrees. I made my protein shake, then walked the dogs and decided today would be the day to start a new habit. It'll require me to keep some cash on hand, but it's well worth it. A little before 2pm, I downloaded the first Longmire book on my phone's Audible app and had charged my phone and bluetooth headphones.  I got the headphones working and the book started and I headed out towards Sonic.  It's a 15 minute walk from my house to Sonic. Mostly up a pretty steep hill, but listening to the book took my mind off of that completely and before I knew it, I was practically to the Sonic parking lot. I sat at one of their outdoor tables and pushed the walk-up order menu button.  From 2-4pm every day, they have Happy Hour with half price drinks and 99 cent corn dogs. Now, yes I know the corn dog completely countered any calories I burned with this walk, and I hadn't planned on getting a corn dog, but it sounded so good. I don't plan on getting one every time, maybe once a week. I did get my usual 44 oz Diet Dr Pepper. After I finished the corn dog, I turned the book back on and headed back home. Carrying a huge Styrofoam cup like that is pretty awkward, but well worth it. I love my Diet Dr Pepper.

While losing numbers on the scale will be really nice to see again, what I am really looking forward to is finally seeing my legs and thighs shaping up again.  I used to walk every evening, years ago.  of course I was younger then, and losing weight and toning up was a lot easier.  But I remember seeing my legs shape up over the months I walked.  Now, they are like giant fleshy tree trunks. It's awful. My arms are worse, but I don't see anything really helping them.  Even if I can tone them up, that flab never goes away. Legs are just easier, so I'm just going to concentrate on them.  The rest of it will come along.. weight loss,  Waist size will shrink.. eventually.  I will be looking at numbers on the scale as far as the goal goes.  I want to lose 10 lbs for my first goal.  I feel like that's attainable, and not too far reaching. That'll finally get me back into the 220s which I was at a few years ago.  I've been in the 240s and 230s for the last... 4-5 years now maybe? It's not the size I want to be my default. I feel and look much better in the 220s.  Then, when that's accomplished, I want to get into the 210s again. Eventually I want to get back under 200.  I don't know if I will, but that's the ultimate goal. I'll still be overweight, obese even, officially, but I'll sure look and feel better than I do now, and that's all I really want.  So, today I started the journey with a walk that was just about 1 mile total. Long way to go.

Monday, March 30, 2015

Back to Dollywood! Opening weekend 2015 Season.

We got season passes to Dollywood again this year.  They have an amazing installment plan now that makes it much easier to get the passes for a larger family. Opening weekend was March 21-22, with a special day on the 20th for pass holders only.  Unfortunately, we couldn't go until Sunday, but that's okay.

I did a video while we were there if you'd like to see it. :)

I didn't get too many photos on this one since I was doing video.  But I did get to use my zoom on the bald eagles. Usually I was never able to get good shots of them since my phone didn't zoom.  My new little point and shoot isn't too bad.

One of the coolest rides from the outside is the Mystery Mine since it's a partially indoor roller coaster.

The General Store.  I love this place.

Unfortunately, Zoe got sick after we'd been there a couple of hours, so we headed out.  She did ride the Firechaser Express which we'd been trying to get her to ride all last year.  So, that's a plus anyway.  No the roller coaster didn't make her sick lol.  It was caused by something else.

From there, we headed back to Rhiannon's college to drop her off after Spring Break.  It was not the best week for me I'm afraid.  I was having some pretty down days, and it affected the house and my sleep patterns. Rhiannon ended up sleeping most of the week anyway - probably catching up on it after a busy semester.

Then we headed home and I slept .. a lot. This week, I've had a tension headache for about 4 days and it's not going away. So, I am going to try to sleep it away tonight as well. 

So, please enjoy the video, it's not really great quality LOL.  Hopefully I'll improve greatly at taking videos :)

Have a great week!

Monday, March 16, 2015

Time For a Change

I've felt like it's been time for a change in what I see in the mirror. It's been a long time coming. It's going to be a process.

First, I decided I was sick of my long scraggly hair that was starting to turn gray, especially the roots. I'd been excited about having silver hair, but I don't like Helen Mirren or EmmyLou Harris. Nope.
So, the first step was to cut my hair, and then dye it.  For some reason, I was all for ANY color. I considered pink, turquoise, purple, bright red... and my husband agreed on red.  Well, technically my hair *is* red, so I guess he felt that was the least shocking?  I was fine with it looking like an obviously fake color, so I figured I'd get a wild red.

So, yesterday, 3 of my daughters and I went to the mall an hour away, and they shopped, while I got my hair cut.  They took about 6 inches off and more in some places. I got it layered, which I realized was a bad idea when she tried to blow dry it straight... yeah that didn't work.  I was a poof ball.  So she flat ironed it, but by the time we were done shopping at Target, TJ Maxx and Books A Million, you would have never known it was once straight at all. POOF.  I was really worried I'd made a terrible mistake.

On the way back home, we stopped at Sally Beauty Supply, and my college girl who is home on Spring Break got some lavender hair dye and a bleach kit. So, I looked for the brightest red hair dye I could get without bleaching mine.  Mine is already frizzy, I didn't want to damage it more than necessary. My kid also said she thought I'd need 2 packs since my hair was long, so since the really bright one only had one box, I went for the next brightest.  It's by Ferria, and was really pretty on the model.  I knew it would not look like that on me, but I was willing to see what it would do. 

When I got home, I called my oldest daughter who dyes her hair all the time (and her sister in law's) and she was excited to do mine.  So at 1am in the morning, she came over and dyed my hair. When it was all done, I used the diffuser on my hair dryer (for curls) and I loved it! It looks wild and crazy, but it's different!  It's a lot darker, and makes my face look even paler, so my makeup will likely change a little. The cool thing is, it's purple in the sunlight. It's definitely a wine color, not a bright red, and the highlights are purple.  Very cool.

I wouldn't have had purple hair when I was in my 20s, but at age 44, going on 45,...  I'm perfectly cool with purple hair.

Here's the pics...

BEFORE... long and scraggly!

MIDDLE.. after the hair cut but before the dye.

Like my shirt?  it says Pugs and Kisses!  LOL

And AFTER!  Cut and dyed and blow dried to be super curly!

Step 2 will be getting new glasses. No clue what color yet, but they'll be plastic again.  I prefer them. Probably black geek glasses, but who knows!

Step 3 will finally be getting my lower dentures done. In fact, my teeth are why I'm not doing vlog videos.. I just can't show my face on videos yet.  I did a test video, and I just can't do it.  But it's been the final push I needed to finally get them done.  I was going to last year, and just kept putting it off. But no longer.  My husband's benefits take effect at the end of April, so we'll have two dental plans on me at that time. No more excuses.

So far, I am feeling pretty good about everything. Optimistic!  Which is good because otherwise I feel like crap at the moment.  Walking around all day after driving for 5 hours to get my kid from college the day before... well my body decided today was NO.  I was supposed to get up and go grocery shopping before my husband went to work, but when I found out he called in sick (flu with a fever of 102.6), I stayed in bed, and then realized how sore I was.  I should have taken Ibuprofen earlier, but all I wanted to do was lay there.  I ended up staying in bed til time to go to work.  I feel awful about it.  I wasted a whole day, but I guess in the end, my body needed the rest.  Tomorrow I plan on being super productive.  I already have a head start getting all the dishes done and kitchen cleaned up. Ready for a good week!

Hope y'all had a great weekend!

Fauxbonichi Flip Thru for the rest of January 2015

Hey y'all!

Sorry I've been missing for a few days.  Everyone here seems to be battling a bug, and when it hit me, my body decided I needed to sleep for 2 days straight to fight it off.  I am finally feeling mostly better now though.

I just uploaded a new video in case anyone would like to check it out. It's the rest of January in my Fauxbonichi Journal flip through.

Tuesday, March 3, 2015

A Little Good News (I Hope) and A Little About My Husband

Ok, first of all, *knock on wood*.  I don't want to jinx this!

A few days ago, my husband came home from work and said, "I'm going to tell you something, and I don't want you to get too excited or start planning for anything."  Well, I prepared myself for the worst. He didn't give any sign as to whether it was good news or bad, so I waited.

A little bit  lot of a backstory here.  My husband, Christopher, worked for KMart for 14 years.  He did almost everything there was to do in that store, from starting out as Christmas help in toys to overnight supervisor, to stockroom asst manager, to stockroom manager to dept manager over all sorts of depts. He was laid off in January 2006 when they restructured, and found a new job with Blockbuster as an assistant manager. He was with them for a few months when he had his heart attack in January 2007. (I kind of hate January now.)  He realized a large part of it was the stress he was under at work, so he quit. He went back to Kmart and applied and was hired immediately for the stockroom. They had a new store manager by then, and the one who had laid him off had actually been demoted and moved to another store... but anyway the new manager immediately saw that Christopher had potential, and made him a key carrier. Within a few months, he was the new Assistant Manager. The store has gone through 4 Store Managers since then, but Christopher just kept on doing his job, and doing it well. One store manager was getting ready to retire and was going to recommend Christopher to be given the store when he did so in a year or so. Unfortunately, that manager was transferred to another store when districts got rearranged, and a new manager was brought in when she moved from New York. She was nice and fair, so at least that was good. Christopher was still going to look into the management training program the company has and see if he could get into one of the classes. However, the new district manager was horrible. He told me she reminded him so much of Dolores Umbridge from Harry Potter, in looks and personality. Basically, just mean.  He'd had glowing reviews from every previous manager and even the previous district manager had respected him when he basically rant the store alone before the new manager was brought in... but not this new one.  In the end, it was obvious she wanted her own team of people running the store.  She fired my husband, and she harassed the new manager, who had just moved here from NY for the job, so badly that she tearfully announced her retirement to the whole store after a phone call with the DM.  Christopher had been the Asst Manager there for 6 1/2 years. 

He was unemployed for 4 months, during which he did look for jobs, but we were doing okay with my income and his unemployment and money we got when his grandfather passed away. So he was able to wait until he found the right job. Fortunately, another company had also been doing some restructuring, and one store's store manager was going to be made a district manager over a whole new district they were creating, and the store's asst manager was going to be store manager for a different store.  So the store desperately needed someone.  So, Christopher got a call and an interview and became the assistant manager of a local discount retail store (not sure if I've mentioned it before, but I'd rather not say it here and jinx it more). It's not in our town, but about 30 minutes away in a rural area (yeah even more rural then here). The DM who hired him, said the store still needed a store manager and that if Christopher did well, he saw him likely getting the store manager position in a couple months. That made the big paycut for his current position really worth it. we just had to hang in there and hope it did happen. It was all sort of up in the air though, because the restructuring was still going on, and the DM who hired him was no longer his DM after just a week, and we didn't know how the new one would feel.

Which brings us to the conversation I started off with...  The new District Manager had called Christopher at work and informed him that the lady who had been the store manager of his store before was finally officially a new District Manager. It was finalized in the system, so finally he could get a new store manager for the store.. and was Christopher interested?  He of course said he was, and the DM said he'd be in soon to talk to him further about it.


I couldn't jump up and down and go crazy with cheering when he told me because he said not to over react. So, that's why I'm telling you all LOL!  It's certainly not a done deal yet, but it sure sounds promising! OMG I am so excited and proud of him!  I told y'all that backstory to give you an idea of the experience he has going into this job.  In fact, I told Christopher that in this new company I can not only see him as being a store manager, but also going on to be a district or regional manager. I'll support him in whatever he wants, even if it's just managing his store. I know he'll be excellent at it.

I will let y'all know if/when we get word that it's official. Of course, it does seem in this company that things like that take some time, so who knows.

Have a great day y'all!